Ding....

Ding
Hello
Ding...
Goodbye
Ding
Hello Again...
Ding...
I don't think this is going to work

Ding!
This is getting old
Ding!
Why do you continue knocking!?
Ding
Am I not a lost cause??
Ding...
I am broken
Ding..
I am damaged goods...
Ding
You must have better places to be
Ding
Less tarnished souls to Save.
Ding!!
Ding!
Ding...

Ding...
Hello
Ding
I hear You
Ding
I see you now
Ding
Like I never did before

Ding...
I place my hands, my life in Yours
Ding...
Never let me go
Ding
I was a fool
Ding
You weren't the one saying goodbye
Ding...
It was me

Ding...
I'm here now
With you
Ding...
I want to be ready
For what Your Will has for me
Ding...
I want to forget the past
Leave it rot behind me
Ding...
You are the Mystery
What I can not fathom
Ding...
Ding...
Ding...

Here.
I.
Am.

I want to die to myself...
I want nothing to remain...
Except you.
Kill my pride
Kill my selfishness.
Take it away...
I only want You.

Ding...
The Dawn is Treading...
Rising over the mountain
Ding...
You are my Hope
Ding...
You are my King...
Ding...
You are my God...
There is nothing...
I AM NOTHING...
Without You

We're All Apart in God's Song

 
Before I let you go, give me just one more night to let you know just how I feel.
Before you say goodbye, can I look upon your face one last time
I tried to let you go, I wish I could turn back time and show you how I feel
I tried to be yours, somebody I could not be -- A fallacy -- A shadow in the night


Before you let me go, whenever that day came
You saw me, for more than I saw myself
Potential that had yet to be grasped
Know, though, that I can never let you go
I see you, now, for more than I had ever before
As if my eyes were never fully open


There is a spot light, it was with you
But it needed to move toward the next place on the stage
Before the bulb flickered
And would never shine there, fully, again


If we slip away in darkness do we fall from memory?
Why must the little things in the journey of life haunt our soul?
Do angels sit at the crossroads of our life
With neon signs pointing us toward the light?


There are choices we must look upon
And realize who we truly are
Turning right and left matters little
In the Odyssey of life
Right...Left...God will be use us
As His Will dictates
We all have our own part in God's Song

I made a soldier's decision to fly away
As much as it pained me to do
I turned left
You stayed on the road and took the next right...

I raise my glass to you
And the incredible life
That God has granted you, my family
Here's to you, my friends, my brothers, my sisters!
Heaven's not far away
Cheers
I Love You

To my Family that God called me away from in both Grass Valley, CA and Catonsville, Columbia, Ellicott City, Baltimore, Elkridge, etc, Maryland.  The words that I write will never compare to my actual Love and Affection toward EACH and EVERY one of you.  I love you.

*I know I posted "God's Song" by Cold as the song that inspired this post, but really Cold's entire Album "A Different Kind of Pain" was a huge inspiration to me in this piece, taking whole lines, or part of lines, of lyrics...

Adulthood -- Inspired by "What I've Done" by Linkin Park

There comes the days when one has to take that pivotal step from Child to Adolescent, Adolescent to Young Adult, and Young Adult to Adult.  I've been playing a fictional character for the past few years named "David S. Floyd - Adult" When my title really was closer to "Adult in Training" due to the fact that I had Blinders on most of the time.  My perception, six days out of seven, of what an Adult was, was defined by, more or less, myself rather than what it actually is.  So, allow me to start this post in defining what the world defines it as and go from there...

Dictionary.Com:  Noun: 1) A person who is fully grown or developed or of age. 2) A full-grown animal or plant. 3) A person who has attained the age of maturity as specified by law. 

Adjective: 4) Having attained full size and strength; grown up; mature: an adult person, animal, or plant. 5) Of, pertaining to, or befitting adults.6) Intended for adults; not suitable for children:

Or...Just for fun, if you'd rather...Urban Dictionary Defines "Adult as" (NOTE! Going to Urban Dictionary is at one's own guidance!!)

1) The period of your life before death, and after the time when you realize that it is, in fact, NOT cool to paste cut-outs from 'Teen People' onto your binder. (When Jenny realized that she had become an adult, a part of her died)

 

2)  A depressed child. Adults have the notion that juveniles need to suffer. Only when they have suffered enough to wipe out most of their joyous spirits and innocence are they staid enough to be considered 'Adult'. See also: Mature.(You go to your kiddie freinds. Come back when you're an adult and stop playing Pokemon)

In my opinion, the fact that I can go out and buy a Lottery Ticket, buy and drink alcohol, and I get cheaper car insurance does not...should not be what we judge "Adulthood" by.  Unfortunately....While I was not walking with Him as closely as I needed to, I fell into the world's trap of the definition.  I have paid my taxes and bills on time.  I signed up for a credit card, last week, and, because of my good credit, I and was approved for a larger amount of credit than I know I will need...But what does that do?  What kind of effect do they have on my life?  Simple Answer?? NONE

But our Spiritual Adulthood should be closer to who we have become because Christ is living IN us!  That our light will shine in the world and that we take our crosses up daily in the journey to follow and become like Him!  I went to a gathering this past week and one of my coworkers' wives asked me how I had been where I replied "I've never been better...I can't complain" She replied with, "I want whatever you have" Where without fail I responded with, "Come to church and find out..."  

What I've done, in my past, and what I will do, in my future, is and will be nothing that I am proud of.  I am a wretch.  I am a schmuck.  I am a hypocrite.  Yet...I have been saved by God's Grace that He gives freely; not because I...we have earned it by our own merits but because He gives it to us freely. I do stupid things that I don't know why I do them...TIME AND TIME AGAIN!  I know that I will stumble and I will fall, but that will not deter me in my quest of becoming closer to him because I know that God came down to rescue me, to be my Savior, and, like always, he will continue to pull me out of my personal Pit of Despair.

I know that the path that I am on is the road less traveled.  I know that it will be a struggle to move my feet at times, but I just need to TRUST in Him and my life will be nothing short of amazing THROUGH Him!  I've lived life without Him and I've lived life in Him....I still will stumble, but there is no more doubt in which path I want to be on....

"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this i s not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast" Ephesians 2:8-9