Just Because....

I lack time to really blog about anything deep, so I'm just throwing this link on here because this is what I'm playing.

Failure to Excel is a local band to the Baltimore, MD area.  The bassist is one of my close friend's ex-boyfriends, so I listened to them every-now-and-then.  The quality might not be the best, but this is one of the best covers of this song that I've heard through YouTube.  Also, being that it is an idie band, not enough attention gets shed their way. 

So listen.  I hope you enjoy.  And I promise that the next blog will be more meaningful...

Jesus is for Losers

No I didn't sta..sta...stutter with the title choice.  As you listen to or read the lyrics ( which can be found HERE )  try to understand what Mr. Taylor is trying to get across to the listener.  

Starting off with a hammer he starts chisiling down getting into the "meat and potatoes" of the song within the first 3 lines "If I was driven/Driven ahead by some noble ideal/who took the wheel?"  Our thoughts, our actions, although they can be noble, but do they drive us?  Where do they lead?  Are we aiming for something higher that we are chasing after?

"Just as I am/I am stiff-necked and proud/Jesus is for losers/Why do I still play to the crowd?  Just as I am/ Pass the compass, please/Jesus is for losers/I'm off about a hundred degrees"

I don't know about you all, but in the times of my past the more I've thought I've "had my life together" (1) the more I was totally lost.  The more that I did things my way, the more the tapestry of my life unraveled.  The more I turned my back from God, the more he pursued me.  And why?  Why was it so difficult?  Why did I have this struggle to accept this Ever-Lasting-Love that was freely given?  Stiff-necked and proud with my nose up into the air, I didn't want to give it over.  I did not want to get out of the driver's seat (as it were, not like I was REALLY the one driving, but you get my metaphor).  Bowing my head in surrender...Trusting in Him I didn't want to do.

Jesus said, "And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." - Matthew 10:38 & 39

"Just as we are/At a total loss/Jesus is for losers/Broken at the foot of the cross/...Just as I am/In a desert crawl/Lord, I'm so thirsty/Take me to the waterfall"

I woke up on New Years Day, this year, and realized how thirsty I had become.  How lost, how blind I was living.  Following the crowd, living life not in TOTAL and COMPLETE darkness.  I still prayed.  I still listened to Christian music, and I knew the church I wanted to become involved in and call "Home"...eventually.  I was definitely not living it up to the standards that I set for myself.  New Years Morning, waking up on a couch in a strange house and with a head ache and all, was my turning point.  I am not, and never will be, perfect, but there is something more in me, now, that wasn't as evident before.  "Jesus is for losers/Grace from the blood of a tree"

(1) - Quotation taken from Mr. Russ Bloom

Welcome to My Music Blog!

This is the start of something new.  I don't know where it will lead.  I don't know if it will be something great.  Or just end up as an #EpicFail. But, anyways, Wecome! No, that doesn't seem right...Here, how about...This....  

WELCOME TO MY MUSIC BLOG!!

There, that about sums it up nicely.  Here I will discuss music, but not in the normal way.  I am not a critic. I enjoy discussing music in it's entirety.  I was raised with a Mother who listened to Neil Diamond and two older siblings that listened to everything in the 80s from Journey to Guns N' Roses to Ace of Base...And then later in life I have come to enjoy Post Rock to Trance and Dub Steep.  If you disagree, or have other aspects that I haven't seen, feel free.  This is an open forum that I felt like I needed to start to help me write something other than poetry.

I will be adding a lot from YouTube so I apologize in advance if some of the video's musical quality is a little bit lacking.